Last Sunday, music and entertainment icon Carrie Underwood did an interview with CBS Sunday Morning. The winner of multiple Grammys, three-time Female Singer of the Year, and most decorated star in AMA history talked about her faith, her family, and her fears. It was her fears that brought Underwood to tears. She, with her husband Mike Fisher (NHL star), has a three-year-old son named Isaiah. But it was her account of a second child that brought a tearful revelation.
The couple had planned to have a second child in 2017. Although she became pregnant in early 2017, she now says “it didn’t work out.” The 35-year-old star says she felt it just wasn’t God’s timing, and that she would bounce back.
The native of Checotah, Oklahoma got pregnant again that spring. Again, she says, “It didn’t work out.” When she had her third miscarriage early this year – that’s when she broke down.
“It was just kind of like ‘what’s the deal?’ she recalled thinking. “What is all of this?”
Underwood continued, “I had always been afraid to be angry because we’re so blessed. My son Isaiah, he’s the sweetest thing. He’s the best thing in the world and I’m like, if we can never have any other kids, that’s okay because he’s amazing. And I have this amazing life. Really, what can I complain about? I can’t.”
She continued, “I have an incredible husband, incredible friends, an incredible job, an incredible kid. Can I be mad? No. And then I got mad.”
While sobbing one night, she poured her heart out to God, asking him, “Why?”
“Why on earth do I keep getting pregnant if I can’t have a kid? Do something, God! Either shut the door or let me have a kid,” she told God.
Underwood concluded, “For the first time, I feel like I actually told God how I felt and I feel like we’re supposed to do that. It still hurts, but I’m going to keep on trusting God when it hurts and when it doesn’t. If he doesn’t answer my prayers the way I want, I’m still so incredibly blessed.”
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Sheryl Lynn writes for the Christian Post.